Chapter One | How Did I get Here?
“The only meaning of anything in our past is that it got us here, and should be honoured as such.” From A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson
It took me over 30 years to find my way to yoga and get it. As a student in Aachen, Germany, I went to a few yoga classes and all I remember about those was me having a hard time trying not to burst out laughing during Shavasana, wondering what I was meant to be doing… I was only 21, so fair do’s to my younger self. I had just started studying European Business Management in Aachen, a course that promised a 6 months exchange in France and final year in Scotland. Happy Days. After a first attempt at choosing ‘a career’ based on logic (option A will make you more money than option B) and making the wrong choice, I was excited to have the chance to see a bit more of the world an experience different cultures. And this led me to Edinburgh where I fell in love with the city and its people instantly. Where else are you greeted by a magnificent castle in the heart of the city, the sound of bagpipes playing in the streets and the purr of soft Scots accents all around you? I loved it so much, that I stayed when my final year of undergraduate studies was completed. I studied some more (Festival & Event Management – because, well… it’s the perfect course to study in the city of festivals…) and then started working in various office-based roles over the years, mostly in the tourism/hospitality sector.
And don’t get me wrong, I love working in tourism. Even though the hours are usually long, the people are awesome and passionate and it makes for a nice work environment. I quickly found fulfillment in the world of marketing, or so I thought. Really, I was constantly looking for the next thing to bring me happiness and fulfillment, never stopping. I thought I’ll be truly happy when I get this job or that job. Living from holiday to holiday. And I am not complaining – all these different jobs have led me to where I am today and I’ve met so many people through work and studies who are now life long friends and I wouldn’t want to change any of it. My point is that no job, promotion or newest material possession will ever bring you true happiness and peace! My relentless search for external sources of happiness, joy and love has ultimately caused two beautiful long-term relationships to end. My heart was shattered into a million pieces as I was grieving the loss of connection, friendship, love, companionship and all the magical experiences we had shared – twice! And then I found yoga (or yoga found me?) and everything changed for me – and it can change everything for you too!